False Light And Ashes

Actually feeling okay about going to work tomorrow. I just hope I'm able to get some sleep tonight. I have some cramps going on but I've also pumped myself full of painkillers and they're working right now so fingers crossed! ^_~ Bill will be pretty much absent tomorrow also so that means a much less stressful day. I do have a large project though. I pretty much have to perfectly re-create a 98 page book but enlarging and reformatting to fit a larger size page. Fun stuff! *sarcasm right here* In all seriousness though, while it will become tedious, I kinda like to get projects like this every now and then. Gives you a chance to kinda clear your head and space out a bit while concentrating on what you're doing. Should make the day pass quickly too.

After work it's shopping time which should bring my present need down to 1 person. Not too bad for December 8th. ^^

I'm a bit iffy about wednesday. We're supposed to get nasty weather tomorrow night into wednesday morning so this girl may be having a half-day at work. If the roads are bad, I'm not gonna be there. Simple as that. I'll no longer take that risk. It's simply not worth it. So, I'm playing it by ear and if I have to go in late I will. We'll see.

It's SNOWING!!!

Got mt x-mas bonus today in my check AND Bill also paid me for the day I had to call off this week even though I have no sick/vacation time left! XD YAY!! <3

You know you and someone have become way too attached to each other when you don't talk for 3 days and you get a text asking if everything is okay because we haven't talked in a while. lol. ^^ I guess 3 days can be considered "a while" when you're used to talking pretty much every single day. <3

Trying not to let the Christmas blues overtake me by distracting myself with lots of presents buying, wrapping, decorating and work. Been kinda working so far. Ah denial, how I love thee! ^_~

New neighbor upstairs. Seems like a nice guy though moving in is pretty loud still. I just hope they call it quits for the night fairly soon so I can get some sleep.

Just got done wrapping presents, watching Christmas Vacation and am about to put my chair together that came today. This evening is going fast. :/

Might post pics later. We'll see how tired I am and what time it is.

I'm cold and tired. I think I'm gonna call it an early night.

Saw New Moon tonight. Not bad.

Notre Dame did not win.

......... D:

Well...my sister and I did not end up going shopping today like originally planned. lol. She had a late night with all her friends wanting to see her and was a bit hungover this morning/afternoon! So yeah, we decided it would be better to push that until tomorrow. ^_~

It wasn't a whole shopping waste though. I did just order a present for my mom. She's been wanting a new digital camera for a while now so I just ordered her one from Best Buy so it should show up Wednesday or something. Good stuff. ^^

Also...I just sent possibly the cheesiest pickup line as a text. lol. It just popped into my head and I had to do it!! XD I was actually giggling to myself as I typed it. I'm waiting on the response. Should be funny. <3

I think Notre Dame is gonna win this one!! Woo Hoo. They better......D:

The wind outside right now is INSANE!! D:

I just had to actually go out and put a rubber band around my wind chimes so that they wouldn't drive people nuts all night. I usually can't hear much inside of my apartment because it's well insulated, but I'm hearing all kinda of banging and stuff and I have no clue what it could be considering it's coming from the front of the building and there's really nothing there. lol. Who knows.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!! XD

This holiday weekend is turning out better than I had anticipated. Hoping for a good day! <3

Nothing like mopping at 11pm. lol. What an exciting life I lead!! ^_~

Actually, I just want to make sure everything looks good and is in it's proper space. I'll definitely be having some visitors over the holiday dropping by, like my sister for sure, but there may be some other people too. *ahem* So, want the place to look nice! <3

I have so much to do tomorrow it's crazy! A lot of it is actually essential too so...that blows. Can't skip it if I get busy, though I guess some things could be bumped to Wednesday if necessary.

Tiffany = 1, Blinds = 0

Muah ha ha XD

Vicotory is sweet! ^_~ Think I'm gonna do something mindless like play some Samurai Warriors or whatever before I get back into my next project: clean EVERYTHING! I've decided tonight will be a cleaning/organizing night. Then maybe in the next days I'll decorate. Perhaps Thanksgiving night once I come home. That will give me something fun to do! ^^

ALSO......there is a possibility that the boy may be home to see his family for Thanksgiving. *__* That's some very interesting information right there with interesting prospects that go along with it.

What I do know is that my sister is coming home in 4 days and I'm pretty excited. Haven't seen her in over a year and am looking forward to it!! ^^ <3

Installing blinds is much harder when you're attempting it by yourself and can't use your power screwdriver because it doesn't fit through the space it needs to. Grr. It's times like these I curse my wimpy arms!

I might give in and start decorating for xmas tonight. Hey, I held out until a few days before Thanksgiving. I think I did well. XD LOL

So I'm laying here half asleep listening to Conan and I hear banging outside. This is weird in and of itself because my neighbor above me is gone and no one is currently living in that apartment. I get annoyed and go to peek out and see my garbage can knocked over....again.I'm all fired up, throw shoes on thinking I'm gonna be chasing away the neighbor's cat before it tears open the garbage bag again. Holy shit was I wrong!!!

The can has been dragged from beside my porch to next to my car and is CRUSHED. I mean crushed and the bag is nowhere to be found. I'm baffled and am thinking someone is fucking with me. I stand there looking around for kids or something and can hear some movement across the way but can't see anything.

I go inside and call my mom because I'm kinda freaked out to be honest. While I'm on the phone I tell her that I'm gonna go back outside to just check if the bag is somewhere I can see since I don't wanna have to clean up garbage tomorrow. I walk out past the front of my car and look to my neighbor's place and then I see A FUCKING BLACK BEAR!!!! I saw it's front legs move when it started to walk and it's head turned towards me. I yelled and RAN as fast as I could back into my apartment and slammed/locked the sliding door and turned the porch light off. This thing was big. If I was on all fours, it would be probably twice my size.

I think I was just almost eaten.

I was out after work tonight doing some running around. Got some more christmas stuff and man is some of it glittery......and FABULOUS!!! *__* LOL.

Might wrap a couple of presents tonight that I have. Who knows. I wanna decorate!! *whines in corner*

I picked up the canvas I needed for the painting I'm going to do. Will probably start working on it tomorrow. I'm a bit too tired tonight because once I get started on things like that, it's hard for me to stop if it's not complete.

I also ordered an accent chair for my living room. I've been looking around for a while now and found a nice chocolate brown on online that should go nice with the rest of the room. Would be nice if it shows up this coming week.

I'm starting to feel better in general. Thank goodness because I don't know how much more of that I could take. Not great yet, but getting there.

Well, on the brighter side of me being kinda depressed the last couple of day...I think I've finally come up with a solid idea for a painting I wanted to do for my office. It's funny, it's really kinda morbid in nature but when you see it I doubt anyone but me would know what it really means. haha. I'll need to do some rough sketches for this one beforehand I think. Hopefully in the next few days I can get around to picking up the proper canvas. Gonna need a big one. Kinda excited now.

There are way too many things concerning my life and my future that are in the hands of others and I hate it. I can't stand the not knowing. I try to handle it well and not worry too much or try not to dwell, but sometimes it just catches up with me, like tonight. If certain things don't work out the potential for complete devastation is overwhelming. There have been no indicators it will turn out this way, but it's still a possibility of course that I need to consider. I should just try to put it out of my head I suppose or else I know I'll be laying there, thinking about it and won't get any sleep. *sigh*

I guess listening to this song probably doesn't help anything either. lol.

My friend Laura is so freaking cute! XD Her and her husband Mark are in Philly right now because he surprised her with Flyers tickets and she's a HUGE fan!! I've gotten texts from her today from the time she left through getting there. She's so excited! lol. I would say I hope her and Mark have a good time but I'm fairly certain I don't need to worry about that! I love when people have things make them that happy ^^

I like when Shou is more somber looking and less smiley when he's on stage.

I also enjoy when he yells/screams.

It's hot.

That is all.

Got my new phone yesterday. I wasn't quite sure about it at first, but now I really like it. It has a nice big screen and a slide out full keyboard which is handy considering how much texting I do. *cough* >>;

I just had a convo go from light and teasing to totally serious and heavy over the course of the half hour we were going back and forth. I'm not sure if it's over for tonight since I left things kinda up in the air as in the person can respond if they want to further or we can leave it as is for now. Laid a couple more cards out on the table (not anything that should have surprised them really) and now it's up to them to take that info and process it. So yeah, who knows. lol.

Think I'm gonna watch my alice nine dvd that came today. Woo hoo. XD I was going to before but had to end up taking a little nap instead. haha. I swear, by friday evening I'm like a little old lady because I'm so drained from the rest of the week. ^^